Is That Even Real?

Unconditional love;  such a beautiful concept.   I love seeing you filled with euphoria. I love how beautiful you are when you truly smile. I love when you laugh so much your eyes get super small.     No matter what, you are still there. No matter how angry I get at you, you are…

We’re Human

I am not sure where to start with this one. Day by day I struggle to not beat myself up over past mistakes. I struggle with staying positive and believing in myself. I struggle with the fear that everything could come crashing down. I know why I am like this and I know it is…

To Me…

This post is about me.. My struggles.. My strength.. My accomplishments.. and my drive. Most people do not know that I have a daily struggle with anxiety. Most days I wake up frightened to the core about my worries. And throughout the day I do everything possible to counteract these negative thoughts. Some days I…

Why This Was The Best Christmas Yet

I just want love. I don’t want gifts. I don’t want money. I don’t want presents. I don’t want anything material.   I just want you to say you love me. I just want you to say Happy Birthday. I just want you to say Merry Christmas. I just want you to see the pain,…

Ein Jahr später

One year ago, I lost hope. One year ago I was emotionally lost. One year ago I hated my favorite time of year, Christmas. One year ago, I hated myself. One year ago, I had no direction. Fast forward 365 days and I’m walking through Alexanderplatz Weihnachtsmark smiling from ear to ear. I’m happy –…